It All makes Sense at the End

I must write this quickly because my mom needs the laptop and I have algebra homework to do.

I am nearing the end of my eighth grade year at the school I have been attending since age five. It has been the only school environment that I have been directly exposed to. I have met almost all of the best friends I have at this school. I have learned every academic thing that I know from this school. Everything I know about religion I have learned from this school (other than church of course). I know the name of everyone in my eighth grade class. I could probably name all of the teachers (well except the ones that have changed recently and have obscure names), and all of the teachers that I have ever had. So I guess by now you get that I am completely accustomed to the school I go to and I am coming down the home-stretch on a lot of change all at once.

I'm still getting my head around not anticipating which teacher I have for homeroom or knowing exactly what i need for school supplies because it has been the same for nine years. I'm probably going to have the majority of my classes with people that I don't know at all. All I'm saying is that it has been the same thing every year: the same building, people, teachers, rules and everything. This means that I am going to have to undergo a lot of change and I am kind of overwhelmed.

I'm going to have to make new friends! I am excited about it but I'm worried. I'm not as outgoing around people I don't as I am around the people I'm most used to be around. I'm worried that I won't know what to say and they'll watch me stutter and run away snickering! I usually don't care what people think of me, but the only people I've ever interacted with are the people I have been with since kindergarten. They have had time to make their opinions and I don't care what they think about me. But I don't like being judged by strangers and I'm afraid people at school won't get me.

I have really come to know who I am in middle school and my best friends have adjusted. I have adjusted to their changes too and it has taught me a lot about myself as well as interacting with other kids.

I know I have to remember that the other kids are just as embarrassed and nervous and unknowing as I am. I just wish that it could be as easy as filling out one of those Internet profiles where they ask you what kind of music, TV, movies, and books and stuff you're into. I'm definately more confident in writing as I am in real conversation.

And I don't if I'm even ready for the three honors classes I'm taking. I trust that my school has prepared me for the academic challenges of high school because my school is a VERY good school. I think I just need to relax and have confidence in myself. I'll just be myself and try my hardest.

I'm still nervous though.

Thanks for reading my nervous rant, cupcakes!

See you guys later!!!

Rachel