I don't love you I'm just passing the time.

I can't think of anything to write. I've been staring at the screen for fifteen minutes and I don't know what to say.

Okay now I've got something.

I was looking at a few people's Flickr photostreams a minute ago. I don't really know who they were but they were just random people I found in the comments of certain pictures. What kind of bothered me is that some people just took pictures of themselves, nothing else. I mean you can take some pictures of your self but there are other beautiful things in the world. Go find them. I understand if you're a model or something but i just...I don't know why it bothers me. Okay forget I said anything. Take pictures of yourself. I don't care. :P

By the way I think Alexa should get a Flickr account ---> www.flickr.com *thumbs ups*

Oh yeah. So, Michael Jackson and Ferrah Fawcett died. Doesn't that suck?

I can't get over Michael Jackson dying. It's just that I was so used to him being a live. I remember when there were these documentaries or something on CNN about him. And I remember when my brother used to be afraid of him (ha, ha). I mean, I didn't think about him constantly or anything (I'm not that big a fan) but whenever he was mentioned I just automatically thought "Yeah of course he's alive." Because there was no question. When you're alive, you're alive. It is so different though. I can't get my mind around it. I didn't really know who Ferrah Fawcett was so that's why I'm not ranting about her. But they both will be truly missed. AND Ed McMahon! And I actually knew who he was. Yeah he was the "HEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRE'S Johnny!" guy. So much going on at the same time. Not good, not good.

Yesterday I went to Hershey Park in Pennsylvania. (By the way, Alexa and Grace: typing Pennsylvania I almost wrote Penisylvania) It was fun. I didn't get on any roller coasters though. I'm not a big roller coaster person. I did hang out in the water park. And I got on the Scrambler and the Howler, and the Carousel. And we went to Chocolate World. I bought a pillow shaped like a pack of Reese's cups. So that's it about that.

I feel happy. I feel happy because I was just listening to Panic! At the Diso. And their music is pretty feel good music. It just makes you feel good. And I just heard the lyrics "reinvent love." Now I get it.

I hadn't listened to Pretty. Odd. in a while so it was nice listening to it.

I just like music. It's a nice thing.

...look at their eyes, they always seem to follow...

I miss dance so much. I miss my friends. I miss my teachers. I miss crunching to good music. I miss stretching. I miss being told to put more feeling into it. I miss watching the big group numbers. I miss doing a million leaps and turns across the floor. I miss it a lot.

Classes don't start until the fall and all I have now is So You Think You Can Dance. So I have to live vicariously through that. And it's not enough :D!

So anyway, at the moment I am listening to the Chiodos album Bone Palace Ballet and I guess it's kind of good. I've listened to a few songs. I like it. I think I can get over the screaming. Again, I like it. But I think I need to go to Record and Tape Traders and get some other music. I just need something that's light. That's also why I'm importing Pretty Odd by Panic At the Disco onto iTunes so I can have that nice music. It's a good light album. I recently went to the The Hush Sound's myspace and I really liked the two songs I listened to and I really want to get more of their music. So maybe I'll mooch off of Grace's and Alexa's libraries.

I want to listen to more Muse too. I have one of their albums and I that was all I listened to for a while but then I got out of it. I always do that. Green Day puts out a new album and I can't stop listening to it and then I become obsessed and hardly know what's on the radio or in music stores. Not that it's bad I just need to broaden my tastes. I think I'll get more Beatles and classic rock too. Like I looked up a few Sex Pistols songs the other day. That's a good start...i guess?

So now I'm going to organize my iPod so I have a play list to listen to on the trip I'm going on tomorrow. So I have something to do.

title quote: Is it Progression if a Cannibal Uses a fork? by the Chiodos.

*myfingershurt*

This is my lovely guitar. I've spent the past hour trying to learn how to play one song. I was not using this guitar but I was using my brother's electric. Mine has a string missing so I had to compromise. Now my fingers hurt like the dickens. I plan on getting a new string maybe tomorrow or something so I can keep practicing. I haven't even played in forever. I took maybe five or six lessons when I was younger but I don't remember a thing.

Anyway, on to other things. It was rainy and stuff today so I was writing a lot. I got a few pages out. I have a bit of editing to do of what I have already written. Plus I have to write a lot more (if I want to make it a novel.).

I don't really have anything else to say so I'm going to go read and do other things.

BYE!!! HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!

This Amazing thing called Target.

I went shopping with my mom today and I went to this Target. I've been to Target before but this one was in, like, a brand new shopping town thing and it was truly amazing!!!

You need to take TWO escalators to get to the store and once you get there it's so cool!

I got some Sharpies. There were a bunch of colors in the pack I've been using them all day. They are fine point and stuff so...I just love Sharpies!

And today I also watched Grace's video and I'm thinging that this whole project is going to be pretty fun. I really want to see Alexa's video too. I'm excited to see what plans she has to be hilarious. No presure. (if you don't want to be hilarious and you're just not in the mood, don't be hilarious).

I don't think I've mentioned that I hate the formatting on Blogger.com. The margins are strange and when you set your font and color it changes when you click somewhere else. And you can't move the pictures your post in you blog. So yeah, Blogger staff get on that.

Before I end this I would like to say that I hope Grace is enjoying her new iPod and I hope that Mr. Carolin is good, Alexa. We have to hang out soon. BYE!!!

Talkin' about Speak

Truly amazing book. I'm not yet finished but as soon as I finish writing this I will go up stairs and try and finish it. There are so many beautifully worded passages and I just love how she words things. I can really start to understand the character's feelings. Now that I know what happened to Melinda I can understand why she is so scared and alone.

If you are a young adult fiction fan and you understand the whole "the birds and the bees" concept, you should definitely read this book.

And I would like to say that I hope Grace and Alexa know what their happy dances are going to be. Only about eight hours until Friday!!!

I am extremely grateful for my brother's patience. I told him he could get on the computer in ten minutes fifteen minutes ago. So I'm going to go find details about the new tiny Netbook (because my mom is considering buying me that) and then go up stairs.

Have a jokes afternoon!

~Rachel

GINORMOUS SLURPEES!!!

This was my dinner last night. It was very very very good.

Pretty much a normal Tuesday except Grace and Alexa came over. We walked to 7-11 and got HUGE XL slurpees. They were so good but so bad at the same time. It's like the Real Housewives. And we also bought a ginormous bag of chips and ate almost the entire thing. I never worry about health when I am with them.

We made our awesome YouTube channel and I can't wait to make a video tomorrow.

It's very exciting. I get to say "Hello Grace and Alexa, it Wednesday June 17th!"

Other than all that awesome shark I'm sitting knowing I have to call someone but I don't really feel like calling them. I'd rather just type and type and type. (I then give up and call this person)

I am happy because I finally got the web address for Alexa's blog and I can read in on her thoughts. LOL. I find that chick pretty dang hilarious.

I really need to find some new music to listen to. I ask Grace and Alexa now to burn me some CDs of music that they think I like. And I add the word PLEASE because I really want some new music! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! All I've been listening to is Green Day. And I love them and find it appropriate to listen to them consider there are 45 days until the concert. But I want something more! I need something new. I've considered raiding my brother's CDs but I don't particularly like all of the screaming. So HELP!

I can't stop fooling with my eyelashes. Alexa decided to give me a makeover and loaded up on the mascara. They're all clumpy now. They looked good when she put them on but they have kind of congealed and are all gross.

So I hope you've enjoyed looking at my dinner.

This one's for the RustyWallaceSisters.

So these are our seats. Good? Bad? You tell me 'cause I'm in the middle.

Just talkin' about mah Johnny boy.

For some reason whenever I hear about, or read about, or meet someone named John, I always call them Johnny Boy. For instance Johnny from The Outsiders, and Johnny Depp. No idea why. And one of my favorite fellas named John is maybe this guy.

So tonight I drank three caffinated sodas so I think I'll be up a while. But I have to make this quick.

I've been straining so hard to come up with a good idea for a novel. I've always wanted to become a YA novelist and be famous and stuff. Well not exactly be famous (just to matter). I would just want someone to read my book and experience my ideas. I've been writing since the day I picked up my fat red pencil in kindergarten. I have so many stories in my brain and some on paper. I have so many ideas for videos on YouTube and all that but I just don't know how to express it.

I could be expressing something now as I'm writing this blog. I just don't think any of this would make a very good novel. But this blog is just me writing what's popping into my head on the spot and many books are like that. All of those books are usually in the first person. Random images spewing out of the author's head and onto the page. I find it truly amazing.

Now, at 10:13pm, June 13, 2009, I realized how many unique, creative influences I have. But I'm sure that most of my creative juices come from reading so darn much. And from my friends and from inspirational videos (i.e. The Beckoning of Lovely). But just trying to work all of this information being thrown at me into one relevant idea is so difficult.

Maybe all of these thoughts are a bit up close and personal with my funky little brain but I'm just writing what I feel. So I'm going to stop oozing boring stuff and go read some more.

thanks!